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15
Date : Friday, October 1, 2010
Mood swing out of the blue.

Perhaps I was still really taking it to heart.

How naive I am.

How I missed the old times, again.

Amazingly,

the most bombastic moment back to the old church I'd grown up with,

the youth group I grew up with,

the friends, pals, seniors, juniors, whatever it is,

and the junior 3 friends, the craziest gang I've ever had!

We just had so much fun in it!

15, the most incredible moment happened in my life!

It's just a sense of belonging, simply just there, used to be part of me.

No wonder Taylor Swift specifically sang about fifteen,

the awesome things that happened back in then.

And after 15,

things changed, life turned upside down.

Had the most awkward circumstances,

the most embarrassing faces,

the immature way of dealing with problems,

and the more we grow up,

the lesser friends we have,

of course it applies the same to me.

I always believe that if God had put me in it,

He wanted me to learn something,

without meaningless purposes.

I do appreciate.

And I don't mind at all the amount of the friends I have,

as long as we are genuinely be treated,

even if just 1,

or a few,

it really, really doesn't matter.

Actually for the past few years,

been trying hard to sway away from the social circles Im in,

to experience total different cultures,

be it friends, social life, environment, future career, whatever it is.

Without saying that the current situation is bad,

Im really grateful and be appreciated for God has blessed me on,

and it is just amazing and more than what I expected!

I guess as time goes by,

the sense of belonging has gone by time after time,

I don't feel myself in any positions,

maybe that's why I feel unsecured,

especially what has happened in sec senior schooling days,

that was a nightmare,

not referring to anyone involved in these.

That was also the time I switched to a new church,

some kind of forces and unwillingness,

I was very down over that period,

blamed on my parents for so-called forcing us to change,

after that,

I became very sensitive.

And I just came to realize recently,

it was my personal inner emotional reflection.

Due to the familiarity among friends,

that really strips me out,

I can't seem to get hold of myself properly.

I fell again and again,

and I learned my lesson.

I hurt some people in the process of learning,

but does someone know I suffer the twice?

Im not trying to gain sympathy,

and I seriously do not need it,

it's just the common misconception that how people look at me.

And I thank God for letting me understand all these,

with various incidents compiling into realizations.

It took me several years to link all mind issues,

how hilarious my life is.

You know among all friends, you suffered the most.

You might not understand what is it all about,

and I don't expect you do.

If you do, that's encouraging,

if not, that really doesn't a thing.

It's not that I don't care,

and because I really care,

I would rather let nature takes it course,

which means let God teaches us how to do.

If it's God's will,

things will come naturally.

Ok I admit Im just kinda emo all of sudden,

off to bed.

Night, my father God.

Shuzhen @ 11:40 PM

Oh back to here.
Date : Thursday, September 30, 2010
Wow that's been almost a year since it's been deserted. LOL.

Thought I have deleted the blog,

surprisingly it is still here when it's on my bookmark column.

Life's been good,

since 1 year back ago.

Lotsa things has been changed,

and I guess it's always better than it is.

One thing remained unchanged was,

Im still a free and easy Uni student. =D

But with heavy task,

dealing with my final thesis, research proposal.

Other than that,

Im hoping to work as freelancer,

and I believe God is revealing his way right now.

Nevertheless,

Im about to start a small capital online business with my bestie,

really excited about it!

We're gonna meet the designer during Dec,

it will all be good! =)

Hmmms,

my personal life is pretty dull and boring, according to the measurement of "common definition".

It's all about my lappie, spiritual books and some projects Im currently working on,

meet up friends and traveling once in a while.

And except for one schooling day,

I mostly stay home to do work.

It might sound freaking boring to you,

but I really enjoy it.

The value of life is based on what we think it's worth well spending time to invest.

I hate complications,

therefore my life is pretty simple,

as well as my school assignment. =="

Yes I admit that Im stupid,

but never mind, what matters the most is how God sees me. =)

what else?

Yes Im still single and available.

I've been interrogated by tons of people why am I still unattached?

Many of them gave me a damn surprised looked like I should be in that closet.

Given to my personality and temper,

I should have a very sweet relationship and blah blah blah,

Hahahaha I didn't know it can be a false alarm.

Whatever leaves you guys my good impression. LOL!

Regarding to WHY,

my answer might disappoint you,

that is I believe in God's will.

So are you the one? =)

Finally,

Im very thankful for what Im having right now,

God equips me to be a better me,

showing gratitude should be part of our life,

Im still learning.

Jia you!

Shuzhen @ 4:37 PM

Perhaps
Date : Thursday, October 22, 2009
it's time to move, again!

HHAHAHAHA...

hehehe recently i've been searching how to DIY homemade facial mask..

and i just did one of the information that's been searched!

hopefully the methods will be able to cure my horrible face...TT

moving towards a healthy beauty girl!

:DDDDDD

Shuzhen @ 2:29 AM

God wants me to know......
Date : Wednesday, October 14, 2009
























that,

If you don't like something about what you see and hear,

no point in smashing the mirror,

change who you are becoming.

Shuzhen @ 11:57 PM

OH MY GOSH!!!
Date : Friday, October 2, 2009
OH MY GOSH OH MY GOSH OH MY GOSH!!!!

I have never never expected that my parents especially my MOM allowed me to go perth ALONE!!

u know how delighted i am now??

hahaha...and i've just booked my ticket!!!

and will be flying Sdyney with miss Yvette n her bro & bro-in-laws and her housemate!!

I'm so freaking excited now!!

Here i go!! Perth and Sdyney! and maybe...Melbourne??

Alright! A beautiful summer will be there for ME!!!

Thank God for giving me a great surprise!! :D

Shuzhen @ 12:39 AM

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